凸凸②：人夫的午寐
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Showing posts with label Love 爱情. Show all posts
如果有机会遇见超人，你会问他的第一个问题是什么？
已经一个星期了，原来我挨不过一个星期。我不懂我什么时候变得如此脆弱及无助，发现自己越来越不像以前的我，开始不懂如何面对，却懂得如何逃避，这不是以前的我。
只为了不想让自己的爱人多想、多担心，不愿其他朋友操心，所以一次过将所有事情都往肚子里吞。但是它并没消化，而是在肚子里再酝酿，渐渐地膨胀，直到你觉得恶心，恨不得将它给吐出来。但通常吐出来的，都不是刚吞下的，反而是参杂了血与泪水。
问题接二连三发生，严重性是相等于一个计时炸弹，什么时候会引爆，我不懂。我很想拆弹，但我不懂从何下手，应该剪红线还是黄线，或是蓝线？若我选择红线，我会后悔一辈子，但我确实是不想拖累他，希望他有更好的选择及生活。若我选择黄线，难免友谊会有尴尬的时候，而如此敏感的话题，我确实开不了口。若我选择蓝线，那就是选择性逃避。
结果我选择了红线，也选择了蓝线，而黄线依然不懂如何是好，但这两条线足以让我陷入崩溃阶段。而我更糊涂，漠视了蓝线的重要性，因为它是连贯了红线及黄线，剪了它就等于引爆该炸弹。就这样大家都受伤了，而我更是陷入歇斯底里的状态，毁容无所谓，可是那颗滴血的心，已经难以再痊愈。
这几天，我像是一个孤独且失去灵魂的野鬼，一个人四处奔走，健身室、公园、购物广场等，能暂时收留我的，我也不放过。唯有在他们驱逐野鬼时，才是我真正要想要找的棲身之所，而那只有我的车，只有它陪伴着我。而我依然选择在外流浪，如街边狗般毫无头绪，不知往左或向右走，直到时间到了，才肯离开。有时压抑得在健身室突然呐喊，听见的人若无其事，听不见的却抓紧发根，恨不得把脑子里的烦恼都给拔出来。
其实我很怕寂寞，我已经有了爱情及友情的陪伴，所以很多时候我并不孤单。很多人都说，“朋友不需要多，一两个就好。”我身边真正的朋友事实并不多，数来数去，一个手掌，五根手指，数得完。以前的我很讨厌自己一个人，但现在我不得不一个人，可是痛苦的依然是我自己。无时无刻都会想起朋友的陪伴，想到他时也只能强忍住泪水。
有想过告诉他一切事由，但却害怕了吵架。我俩属硬派，外表吃硬内心却柔软。我外表常常血气方刚，见到他时却也不是一样儒弱得很。每当回到家，只能仰望着他可爱的睡姿，不发脾气、躺在我怀里时，的确让我甜上心头，我也已经很满足。
说实话，我真的很内疚。因为他是我最爱的，但我却给不到他要的。很多事情我不说出口，不是因为我不在乎你，而是因为我爱你，真的不想你再为我的事情添加烦恼。
对不起，不管怎样，对或错，我依然那么爱他。
话说回头，如果我遇见超人，那我会问的又是什么？
你扛得起车子、建筑物等，那你扛得起每一件心事吗？
If you happen to meet Superman, what is your first question that you gonna ask him?
It has been a week, but hardly can I survive within a week. I do not know when I have became so weak and helpless, totally unlike myself, started to avoid the problems and don’t even know how to face it, I wasn’t like that.
Every time I’m trying my best to absorb every single thing by myself without telling or informing anyone, so that they would not worry about me especially my love one. However, things doesn’t go as planned, the problems seems to be rolling and swelling in your stomach, makes you feeling nauseous and you wanna split it out so badly. Unfortunately, the split was disgusting, can clearly seen to be mixed with tears and blood.
The problems keep happening, it is exactly same like a timing explosion, it could be explode anytime, without notice. While I’m trying my best to deactivate it, but how should I get started? Should I cut the red, yellow, or blue wires? Red represents relationship, once I have chosen red I know I will be regret for the rest of my life, but it is also one of the ways that he could have better living and happier life, rather than being suffered together with me. If yellow is my choice, I can hardly seeing friendship to be in the awkward moments due to certain sensitive topics, besides, I seriously do not know how to put it. If I have chosen blue, it is because I am avoiding.
Eventually I chosen red and blue wire, I was leaving yellow aside, but both cut wires are good enough to bring me into hell. I was confused, I neglected the importance of blue wire, as it is linked with red and yellow wires, cutting it off is just same as cutting myself into two, causing explosion. It has caused harm and injuries to everyone, while I was being dragged into black hole, totally collapsed. It is okay to be ugly, but the bleeding heart will hardly recover.
I was like a ghost that has lost its soul, not even can be described as a human, was wandering around alone in the gym, park, shopping malls and etc., as long as there is a place that where can accommodate me, I will surely grab it. The concerns only came to me when they are closing; the only place that could still accept and accompany me is my car. Sometimes I have chosen to walk around the streets like a vagrant dog, with no idea, rationality and directions, when time is up, then will only think of going home. There are times I was over-stress and was screaming out loud in the gym. Those who heard my screaming were neglecting me, while the one screamed hear nothing but grabbing own hair real tight and thinking to pull all the problems off the head.
Frankly I am afraid of being alone. I have my friends and lover to company me, most of the time I am not lonely. Many even told me that “one of two friends is more than enough.” I do not have much buddies around me, it is countable with a palm that has 5 fingers. I was so dislike being alone but now I have no choice, but to be alone, and I know the person that will be suffering is me. Majority of the time, I would think of friends that used to accompany me, whenever I think of my love one, it is even more heartache, that I wonder if I could control the flow of tears that flooding my eyes.
I have ever thought of confessing everything to her, but I am just too afraid of fights and arguments. We both are hot temper, looks hard from the outside but soft in the inner. I look tough from the outside, but real weak inside. By the time I reached home, she is already asleep; looking at her pretty face while she is sleeping in my arms, with no temper, it is the time that melts my heart most, pampering and it would already satisfied me.
I have to say I am really guilty as she is the one I love, however I could give her what she wants.
No matter what is right or wrong, the truth is I still love her.
Back to the first topic, if I happened to met Superman, what question will I be asking?
You are able to lift up vehicles, hold the buildings and etc. but are you able to take up all responsibilities in every personal matter? 有谁愿意为我广播，寻找我遗失的勇敢和坚强
Is there anyone willing to broadcast or paging for the brave and tough that I've lost?
Is there anyone willing to broadcast or paging for the brave and tough that I've lost?
世间风尘仆仆
波浪风起云涌
一波又接一波
恐怕暗潮汹涌
试问谁还记得
难得风平浪静
引来狂风暴雨
天气千变万化
性格难以抓摸
故问谁还记得
明知山上有虎
应避之则安之
为何我行我素
只会空穴来风
敢问谁还记得
一再推卸责任
如面壁再思过
拔草也得除根
因春风会吹生
借问谁还记得
对我依然视而不见
我只能在此继续守候
盼你望着我的那一天
又来到了这个终点
我们也颤抖了几天
倔强下已找不到和解
最终我们是否该放手
不喜欢睡觉时
你不在我身边
不喜欢睡醒时
你不在我侧边
就只有这一些不完美
让我们的生活更充实
只有不起眼的小动作
证明我爱你的每一天
是我自己内心儒弱
无法表达对你的爱
我无法再有任何要求
只能祈求你回心转意
因为我是真心的爱着你
我们的爱就是最佳证明
It’s been awhile since the last posting. Recently I was really tired, not physically but mentally. Turn back to the month of September, I find that not only I was going through the troubles, it happened to other friends as well, thanks to their status updates on Facebook.
It’s hard to heal the wounds, yet it is not impossible. Hearts and efforts can be seen if you willing to initiate the first contact.
Second, there was a serious argument between my mum and my aunt. It happened in… Genting Highlands
We all knew that my aunt is a very hot temper that will throw tantrum without filtering her words via those cells in her brain. We also knew that my mum had been calm and patient for several years, not to withhold nor tolerate aunt’s “royalty attitudes” but being health-conscious.
My aunt is letting out those sarcastic words to my mum, even asking my mum not to seat in her car to go back Penang. My mum called me around 11:30pm, I was really shocked and helpless though I wanted to help, but it seems like there are not much things that I can do. Calling my aunt would only lead to another argument.
I’ve no choice but to SMS my uncles and elder aunt, sort of like seeking their assistances to talk to my “tempered” aunt as I know I am still not the best person to educate her. When my uncle and elder aunt called, I was crying out loud and sadly. I cried is because throughout the conversation, it reminds me the quote from my mum, “no matter how, you need not to do so, because when you were young even now, she is still caring and loving you”.
Third, it was argument between me and my bb. It’s a long story and involves a lot of matters. I don’t know where to begin; I only know there are few words to best describe our situation, miscommunication, untrustworthy, misunderstanding… and maybe unreliability?
Regardless of the issues, we have been together for 6 months. Even after serious arguments, we both know how much we meant for each other and cherish every bitter or sweet moments together.
Fourth, my health… I was sick lately, don’t really know why and what is wrong. At first, I suspected dengue but I’m not quite sure, luckily get well in just few days, thanks to the Paracetemol from my housemate. But just few weeks later, I fell sick again, sigh….
Another issue will be my weight. Keep up and down like share market, right before I sleep or after I woke up, it can be happen in hours. I know I am suffering dropsy but never thought that it will be so serious. Do you have dropsy concerns? Tell me what I should do in order to stay healthy!!
Fifth, my career… obviously, is dropping “tremendously”. Sales is another issue but trustworthy is the prior concerns in an organization. I’ve lost confident to current partners due to their negligence, delays, excuses, stories and etc.
If you see my resume, it is always up and up and up, hardly you can see my Career Life Cycle drop. I know I almost reach the ceiling, I am trying hard to maintain it, but sad to tell, I’ve failed. Maybe it is of “what goes around comes around” theory.
I do not mind if I have to step down, I understand that it is for the sake of my future. Besides, even if I am out of the box now, I believe there are much more to discover and learned. I’ve temporary give up the current aims, moving towards a bigger family now. Am looking forward into aviation or hospitality industry, is that big enough?? Wish me luck!
Most of the fortune tellers in the world saying that “Rat” would have a great careers and good lucks in this year, I guess I am the minority that doesn’t great enough to deserve it.
More updates coming soon… Wanna know my 25th Birthday Celebration and Malacca trip? Stay tune!
First, it was misunderstanding and argument with housemates, and certainly it hurts and leads to no turning back. There are certain words that are not supposed to tell anyone nor voice out on certain media spacing, but we’ve seen all that, heard it as well. In fact, the truth is as simple as A, B, C or 1, 2, 3, it’s about communication and mutual understanding, and obviously, miscommunication is always the prior.
It’s hard to heal the wounds, yet it is not impossible. Hearts and efforts can be seen if you willing to initiate the first contact.
We all knew that my aunt is a very hot temper that will throw tantrum without filtering her words via those cells in her brain. We also knew that my mum had been calm and patient for several years, not to withhold nor tolerate aunt’s “royalty attitudes” but being health-conscious.
My aunt is letting out those sarcastic words to my mum, even asking my mum not to seat in her car to go back Penang. My mum called me around 11:30pm, I was really shocked and helpless though I wanted to help, but it seems like there are not much things that I can do. Calling my aunt would only lead to another argument.
I’ve no choice but to SMS my uncles and elder aunt, sort of like seeking their assistances to talk to my “tempered” aunt as I know I am still not the best person to educate her. When my uncle and elder aunt called, I was crying out loud and sadly. I cried is because throughout the conversation, it reminds me the quote from my mum, “no matter how, you need not to do so, because when you were young even now, she is still caring and loving you”.
Regardless of the issues, we have been together for 6 months. Even after serious arguments, we both know how much we meant for each other and cherish every bitter or sweet moments together.
Another issue will be my weight. Keep up and down like share market, right before I sleep or after I woke up, it can be happen in hours. I know I am suffering dropsy but never thought that it will be so serious. Do you have dropsy concerns? Tell me what I should do in order to stay healthy!!
If you see my resume, it is always up and up and up, hardly you can see my Career Life Cycle drop. I know I almost reach the ceiling, I am trying hard to maintain it, but sad to tell, I’ve failed. Maybe it is of “what goes around comes around” theory.
I do not mind if I have to step down, I understand that it is for the sake of my future. Besides, even if I am out of the box now, I believe there are much more to discover and learned. I’ve temporary give up the current aims, moving towards a bigger family now. Am looking forward into aviation or hospitality industry, is that big enough?? Wish me luck!
More updates coming soon… Wanna know my 25th Birthday Celebration and Malacca trip? Stay tune!
Okay, it's my bombastic time! People keep saying "Never piss off women", besides women, never piss off me as well! This is the first time I am being treated so rude and am seriously disturbed. I never had faced such bad service before.
Don't blame me for being demanding, don't say that I am mean, I am just helping them to improve and develop their business better. The fellow who was rude to me, if you get fired, make sure you go home and facing the surrounded walls and think properly what you have done!
Below is the original email that I have sent to :-
1. Laneige Malaysia (indirectly sent to Laneige Asia HQ in Singapore, in-charged by Laneige Korean CEO)
2. Amorepacific Customer Services in HQ, Korea
3. Amorepacific Investor Relation in HQ, Korea
4. Amorepacific CEO based in Korea HQ, Mr. Kyung-Bae Suh
5. Amorepacific CEO based in France, Mr. Innsoo John
P/S: Amorepacific is parent company of Laneige. One of the top skin care companies and Top 20 companies in Korea.
On Oct 07, 2009, at 07:38pm, I was calling Laneige Malaysia Customer Service No. to inquire about the product status. The call last for 5 minutes 34 seconds.
I called to your office after office hour, I was impressed that someone picked up the phone but she really had ruined my day. The products that I am inquiring are Laneige Homme Fresh Cleansing Foam cost MYR60 and Laneige Homme Sebum Free Scrub Foam cost MYR65.
The reason that I am calling to your office is due to :-
1. I am regular of Laneige Homme. Thus, I am getting abovementioned products for my friend as his birthday present which is on 12 Oct 2009.
2. I went to Isetan in Lot 10, but unfortunately no staff was on duty.
3. I then went to Parkson in The pavilion. I was told by the staff named Eva that stocks are not available at the moment due to the recent warehouse sales and mess in inventory, the shipping of new stocks were delayed. Replenishment most probably only can be done on 14 Oct 2009.
4. Eva was helpful, a compliment to her. She was assisting to call other counters located in Golden Triangle to check the stock availability, but unfortunately all were out of stocks.
5. As I am not able to travel to other places which is farer than Golden Triangle, I was asking Eva if the stock is available in other counters, is it alright to transfer the stock to her counter, so that I can pick up, but she said it is not possible.
Hence, I am calling to your office to inquire, hoping that they could assist me in this matter. I am sorry that I did not get her name as I do not have the chance. I only have the length of time that I made the call.
I was telling her my problems. I even apologize to her as I know I am calling after office hour, I did even leave my name and contact no. to her, telling her that it is alright if she don't get back to me now, as I know I am not supposed to call now, she could call me on the following day.
When I am telling her point 4 as above, her voice sounds frustrating. When I am telling point 5, that is transferring the stock, she was cutting my speech by yelling "Hello" loudly to me. And I thought that the line is breaking and asked if she could hear me, she replied loudly by saying "Yes, I could hear you". When I had finish my speech and she promised to get back to me, she was slamming the phone. I believe that we all know how do the hang up call sounds like when one was getting mad.
First,
I am already very upset as I could not get the products that I want.
Second,
I already apologize for calling in after office hour, but still I am getting such customer services.
Third,
we are all consumer and we do know that customer are calling in to get a solution. If you could help, just say yes, if it's not possible, explain why. But why is she yelling and slamming the phone? I had never seen such a rude person.
Fourth,
I do not mind if she is cursing me but please only do it after the call was hung up properly. It is not professional to handle customer inquiries by showing your anger.
Laneige is one of the premium brands. I am hoping that such case will not repeat. But frankly, I am seriously disturbed by such unreasonable yet rude treatment and am hoping that you could take appropriate action against the unprofessional personnel who handled my call.
As per normal, I was sharing my experience with my friends and bloggers after using Laneige products. Nevertheless, I will be sharing this experience with them as well.
Thank you.
After making the complaint, the next day, I went to Pavilion to get other product from Laneige. You may say that I should not purchase anything from Laneige but one thing I wanted to clarify, that is I am mad because of the rude staff, not the product, although she is representing the company.
On October 09, 2009, I received a feedback from Brand Manager of Laneige Malaysia named Celine Diong (Not Celine Dion). Her sincere apologies had shown that Customer Services indeed is important to them, it is an intangible revenue to any organisation.
A compliment to Celine for her sincere apology and prompt reply. Hoping that you would really taking appropriate action against your rude staff. Thank you.
View from Revolving Bintang Restaurant
It's the first you have your birthday with me
Throughout the period of being together
Tough & joyful, we overcome together
Spending every precious moment with you
And yet I love you even more everyday
Happy 21st Birthday to My Love
I am very disappointed with certain brands
More to reveal after next Monday
Stay tuned!
对某品牌彻底失望
下个星期一后会告诉你更多
敬请留意！
最TL那些爱唱反调的Facebooker
尤其是他们对爱情的观念
自己不认同就算了
还要假惺惺刻意写说在FB去demotivate他人
最鄙视这种人
因为他们酸在吃不到葡萄
对我来说他们就是Poker-Facebooker (PK)!
请某PK人听清楚
如果你觉得为爱人而改变
变成不是真正的自己
然后会不开心
那我想问问你可否想过
当你为爱人而改变当时
你的爱人也不是一样
在为你而改变
一位有事业的三十岁男人
竟然会refuse to change
到香港后找印度煎饼吃？
还是到纽后约找叻沙吃？
若明知生意出问题
突然想到若要改变
就不再按照原先计划走
但是否有想过改变可能带来新生机？
我想请问Change真的只有坏处吗？
做人难道就只有往坏的一方面想
你吃盐多过我吃米
这样简单的道理无需我后辈来解疑吧？！
如果我发现我桃花运正兴旺
我会不顾一切把它斩断
也绝对不会藕断丝连
因为我珍惜这段感情
决不容许他人来破坏
请别说我对你没信心
别告诉我你不会改变
人会随着环境而改变
人会因某事情而改变
就算你对自己有信心
你能保证往后你不会？
但一旦改变了可能自己都不懂
只有身边的挚友更能看得清楚
别以为他当时的出现只是巧合
别怪我超敏感
因为你是我的
还记得1997年Secret Recipe刚开张时
都会到不同的分行品尝各式各样的蛋糕
而最吸引我的目光的不是Cheese Cake
而是意大利最有Feel的Tiramisu
Tiramisu有一个称号叫Heaven in your mouth
还记得吃下Tiramisu的第一口
那感觉就是难以形容
当我正在陶醉其中时
朋友问我到底怎么了
我只回答“有一种恋爱的感觉。”
试想1997年的我只有13岁
何来“有一种恋爱的感觉”
而这几年来除了Secret Recipe外
我还吃过不少不同师傅的Tiramisu
每位的做法都不一样
感觉也变得越来越商业化
最后一次则是品尝于Pavilion的Italian On Sixth
今天我却领悟到了更不一样地Tiramisu
原因在于
他今天心情特别差
原本想开导安慰他
后来却闹得不愉快
是我还没真正改变
还是我太过用心了
我不懂如何开解他
只是突然想起蛋糕
脑海里浮现的就是Tiramisu
今天我并没品尝任何Tiramisu
但无论我走到哪
只因为可以看到Tiramisu
我可觉得很满足、很开心
我希望等他回来后
开雪柜是的那一刻
看见Tiramisu时
也可以看见他的笑容
爱上汉堡包？
我本来就爱
不是麦当劳
而是自制式
曾经在本地一家运动器材公司当过集团广告及促销经理
当时的CEO就发表了他的十句金言
其中一句就是
“你可能对煎汉堡有所歧视，
但你的祖父母对煎汉堡有不同的定义。”
每个人对煎汉堡地定义都不一样
麦当劳就是专卖汉堡来“骗”钱
Ramly就是供应给煎汉堡的大商家
而我所煎的汉堡
只是因为一个人
他：“B, 我想吃汉堡。”
我：“现在已经半夜两点多了，人家已经打烊了。”
就是接二连三的来回说了好几遍
所以索性自己下厨好了
更何况每次买街边汉堡都有偷师
加上对自己的厨艺还蛮有信心
对我来说不是难题
所以
B，请别再问为何有汉堡了
就只是为你…
What am I?
Who am I?
I know I am lost
Lost in my direction
Lost in my control
Lost in my mind
Becoming someone I never thought I would be
Being admired by those who thinks I am an expert or a jerk
But how well do they know me?
Is this a compliment or confusion?
Does anyone knows about me inside out?
Apparently my emotion has taken over me
Becoming irrational yet illogical
Anger always has its say
Angel in me is hiding in somewhere no one could have seen
I do not know where I could find the real me
There I know there is one who love me
Toughness sometimes bring us down
Teasing sometimes lead to disappointment
There may be certain issues that distracting me
That I unintentionally let my anger on you
Though I may be rude at times
Though I may be over-sensitive
Trustworthy sometimes easily get in doubt
There is only one reason for me doing so
That I seriously concern every little thing of you
Though I am not a perfect man listed in top category
Though I thought that I could bring you full happiness
There is only one thing I can't deny
That I really love you
是升职了，不过一点都不快乐
我确实和多人说过我会搬下来KL, 从一月拖延到二月, 再由四月延迟到六月。其实并不完全是我的错，而是我在KL的办公室，屋主迟迟都不能交出单位。但是这次我还是决定搬下来了, 所以我并没食言, 只是迟了些。
这家其实租来不易，前前后后从槟城下来KL两次，只为了想租位于安邦的单位，可是却需通过另外三名经纪，才成功租得此屋。原因在于第一名经纪的个性和为人，还有她不专业的解释，惹来不少的误会。
除了我和三名相识的室友外，还有“同居密友”（不多说大家也懂吧？！）。虽然这个家只是租借暂住，可是以我的性格，就算不是自己真正的家，大家也有责任维持自家清洁。我希望每个家庭成员都能记住“不太计较、自动自发、和睦相处”。而我最低的要求则是“合作、整齐、清洁”。
三年前，我曾经离开家人到吉隆坡工作，随后因为遇到某些挫折，才下决定回槟城。而这次重回吉隆坡的怀抱，对我来说，这地方并不陌生，反而更具挑战性。我懂我将面对的问题，会是我从没遇过的问题。而在别人眼中，我的生活看似很好，可是有苦自己知，因为这社会原本就是“你看我好，我看你好”。Director，并不好当！
我心想，就算再不一样，至少我可以自己照顾自己，烹饪更难不倒我啦。。。
走进喧哗的闹市
站在人群中的我
望着一对对情侣
甜蜜的陪伴左右
此景已久不现在我眼前
就算出现又会维持多久
我不禁多望了他们几眼
只能告诉自己我好妒嫉
灿烂天色突变暗
阳光已避而不见
行人步伐渐加快
心却突然变沉闷
天空飘着小细雨
雨滴声渐渐响起
心开始沉落海底
是我本身的问题
仰或你对我绝情
你说你妒嫉他的所作所为
而我更妒嫉你对他的痴情
我明明很想和你在一起
可是偏偏却为他说好话
不想深爱他的你而难过
我惟有无奈的看在眼里
这是自作自受
还是昝由自取
是否做错决择
就连我也不懂
冷风低速渐刮起
叶子飘落我掌心
一道强光的雷电
犹如刺入心的刃
大风带不走悲伤
只能冷却我的心
巨大的轰隆雷声
把我从梦中惊醒
发现孤单更寂寞
很想往外续奔跑
找寻原来的自己
如果把爱情当一场游戏
那我们的爱情犹如嬉戏
很想现在有你陪伴左右
和我共度过孤寂的一天
当一人在槟城皇后湾广场闲逛时的感触，人生就是如此，要烦的还有很多
一切都那么快
一瞬间原来我什么都看不清
只想再度摸索
寻找已消匿无迹的爱情水晶
失眠的夜晚
不是因为炎热的空气
睡不着的我
而是因为我太想念你
开始了并不想结束
爱过了才知道痛苦
我们的爱并没违约
只是时间上的错误
让我们无法在一起
每一回我介意
听见他对你不是很疼爱你
我扮若无其事
寻找最美丽话题来安慰你
你受尽委屈
但请告诉自己我还爱你
我不再问你
只是不愿听见你在哭泣
是我无赖了吗
还是我太用心
看不清越过的山岭
听不见悲哀的呼唤
朋友依旧陪伴
但我一样孤单
始终无法摆脱你的影子
依然看见最熟悉的轮廓
随着那歌声响起
只想投入你怀里
感受你温柔呼吸
如果可以
我愿做你一辈子
照顾你的每一滴
最近爱上了由陈颖见作词作曲
由盧學叡演绎的《可不可以愛我》
歌词里每个字正说出我的心声
对目前的情况 尚算满意
虽然渴望听你 说我爱你
我不刻意要求 知道就好
你说我想太多
对，我的确是
只因我在乎你
可不可以愛我
詞曲：陳穎見 唱：盧學叡
為什麼如此的安靜
為什麼明明想靠近卻還在遲疑
努力的我保持鎮定努力開拓話題
最後卻潰不成軍
為什麼如此的美麗
深刻的烙在心裡最溫柔的酷刑
每一天無法不想你
連閉上眼睛怎麼都是你
你可不可以愛我可不可以想我
雖然我對自己沒有一點的把握
別害怕我難過告訴我你真實的感受
至少忐忑能告一段落
你可不可以愛我可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德拒絕也不是一種罪過
你能給我快樂還是寂寞
想念燃燒個不停
我快只剩灰燼
你是我的呼吸
我们的相识
是注定 还是巧合
从相识到见你的那一刻
没想过我们可那么亲近
还想我们只会是好朋友
一天的逗留
换来第二天的旅程
三天的相处
多一天
让我看见不一样的你
你
懂得如何爱
也懂得如何被爱
细心与关怀
活在我们的童话世界
无微不至的呵护你
希望你不受到伤害
抱着你入眠的双臂
只想让你睡得安好
再温暖的被单
也抵不过你的拥抱
再甜美的苹果
也抵不过你的拥吻
我非刻意破坏的第三者
只是我已无法克制自己
我知道我真的爱上你了
试找寻早已逝去的勇气
勇敢面对着你说“我爱你”
矛盾的思绪
内心的挣扎
叫我很想做让步
但一而再的思考
却再而三的拒绝
我懂我自私了
虽没想过介入
但却不愿放弃
我懂我要的是什么
浓醋里的酸不比内心的酸
滴到心上的酸却促成伤痕
已清楚知道自己的位子
更懂将面对的流言蜚语
明知道你我他会为此痛苦
我却难以说服我不再爱你
别再说是你的错
我们的心动并没错
只要你一声愿意
等多数年也无所谓
虽然我们不能在一起
但请告诉我 你是幸福的
且请告诉我 你是快乐的
当一切回到status quo
我还是不会让你离开我
我依然会在你身边
呵护着你
Wow~ It's been quite sometime I did not blogging. Please accept my apology as lately there were a lot of incidents and also sudden dramatic changed in my life, which took me 3 days to turnaround and back to my own life, where I used to chat on MSN and blogging.
T A L E N T I M E
Date : April 1, 2009
Venue : Prangin Mall, Penang
Rating : 4.5 / 5.0
Unfortunately, Mahesh's mum did not bless in this relationship, instead she is mad and doesn't allowed him seeing Melur. The reason being is because Melur is Muslim. She is too afraid that she will be losing her son and become Muslim.
The love scenes between them reminds me “Love of Siam”, where the love is simply pure and “I love because I love”.
Other casts that catching our attention are KaHoe and Hafiz. KaHoe is from a wealthy family, but his father has very high expectation on him that he would need to be the perfect ones.
While Hafiz got my attention during the audition of Talentime, he sang “Just One Boy”. Sadly, her mum is seeking treatment in hospital for suffering disease of cancer. Though she is in the hospital, she is still hoping that Hafiz to do well in his studies, even perform well in Talentime.
I find that the editing is quite a mess at first, from one scene to another, which is totally unrelated, introduction of new characters was never detailed, only when it jump into another scene, then you started 'ohhh, no wonder, guan lai (hokkien), rupanya (malay)”. However, you will find the sequences of the editing when you have almost finished watching the movie, thanks to the music.
There are few quotes that keep playing in my mind...
By Melur
“If the moon can blink in day,
Why can't the sun shine in the night?”
By Mahesh
“If you want me to stop seeing her,
I will,
But you need to teach me how,
As I don't know how to do it.”
“If I promised I will never hurt you,
Will you promise not to leave me?”
In Yasmin's blog
T A L E N T I M E
Date : April 1, 2009
Venue : Prangin Mall, Penang
Rating : 4.5 / 5.0
Directed by Yasmin Ahmad, she has once again breaking the ice, exposed the loves, religion, races and mindset between different races of Malaysian citizen. “Talentime” truly reflects the Malaysian issues.
The story was surrounding 2 main roles, Malay-mixed girl named Melur (starring by Pamela Chong Ven Teen, younger sister of Akademik Fantasia winner, Vince Chong), and an Indian boy named Mahesh (starring by Mahesh Jugol Kishor). Both get to know each others in the audition of Talentime, where Mahesh was selected to be the driver for Melur. Since then, their love starts growing, day by day, until the day both were confuse to truly understand the meaning of love.
The story was surrounding 2 main roles, Malay-mixed girl named Melur (starring by Pamela Chong Ven Teen, younger sister of Akademik Fantasia winner, Vince Chong), and an Indian boy named Mahesh (starring by Mahesh Jugol Kishor). Both get to know each others in the audition of Talentime, where Mahesh was selected to be the driver for Melur. Since then, their love starts growing, day by day, until the day both were confuse to truly understand the meaning of love.
Unfortunately, Mahesh's mum did not bless in this relationship, instead she is mad and doesn't allowed him seeing Melur. The reason being is because Melur is Muslim. She is too afraid that she will be losing her son and become Muslim.
The love scenes between them reminds me “Love of Siam”, where the love is simply pure and “I love because I love”.
Other casts that catching our attention are KaHoe and Hafiz. KaHoe is from a wealthy family, but his father has very high expectation on him that he would need to be the perfect ones.
While Hafiz got my attention during the audition of Talentime, he sang “Just One Boy”. Sadly, her mum is seeking treatment in hospital for suffering disease of cancer. Though she is in the hospital, she is still hoping that Hafiz to do well in his studies, even perform well in Talentime.
I find that the editing is quite a mess at first, from one scene to another, which is totally unrelated, introduction of new characters was never detailed, only when it jump into another scene, then you started 'ohhh, no wonder, guan lai (hokkien), rupanya (malay)”. However, you will find the sequences of the editing when you have almost finished watching the movie, thanks to the music.
There are few quotes that keep playing in my mind...
By Melur
“If the moon can blink in day,
Why can't the sun shine in the night?”
By Mahesh
“If you want me to stop seeing her,
I will,
But you need to teach me how,
As I don't know how to do it.”
“If I promised I will never hurt you,
Will you promise not to leave me?”
In Yasmin's blog
- cinema is not a mathematical equation to solve issues, dear. it is a sketch to express its maker's feelings and concerns, many of which will never be solved.
In Wikipedia
- Yasmin also mentioned that the idea behind Talentime: That as humans, we have to go through a lot of pain and some measure of suffering before we can reach greater heights.
Yasmin's first Original Soundtrack?
The music in the film mostly are composed by Pete Teoh. I personally like the lyrics of “Angel”, “I Go” and “O Re Piya” (Of My Beloved). Angel and O Re Piya were the songs that makes me tears and down.OST Talentime
01. Just One Boy by Aizat
02. Angel by Atilia
03. I Go by Aizat
04. Pergi by Aizat 'I Go' Malay Version
05. Itulah Dirimu by Aizat 'Just One Boy ' Malay Version
06. Kasih Tak Kembali by Atilia
07. Just One Boy by Aizat Full Band
08. I Go by Pete Teo Original Version
09. O Re Piya by Rahat Fateh Ali Khan
10. Just Hold On by Azhar
11. Kasih Tak Kembali by Yasmin's own father Ahmad Hashim
12. Clair de Lune (Moonlight) by Claude Debussy
My review...
We can't deny that Malaysia is a unique country,
We can't deny that there is conflicts between cultures,
We can't deny that understanding is what Malaysians need utmost.
In life,
There is laughter ; There is love
There is sadness ; There is tears
In love,
There is no boundary ; There is no limitation
There is no discrimination ; There is no differences
And... I love because I love
I believe you all should listen to this song and pay attention to the lyrics. This song named "Angel", sang by Atilia
Angel
I have a dream of you I can't defined
You've been on my mind
Don't go
I feel lost without you by my side
Lost and on my own
Yeah I'm falling for an angel
Angel
Your brightest star is shining next to mine
Every night and day
You know
Stars exploded then they fade away
Then they fade away
Yeah I'm falling for an angel
Yeah I'm falling for an angel
Would you please be my babe
Come by and I lay you down
I'm loving when you say I love you too
Won't you please be my honey
I'm sorry that I let you down
Your eyes are breaking my heart in two
Break my heart in two
Angel
May the one above us keep you safe
Every night and day
If he knows
How I love the smile all on your face
When you are here to stay
Yeah I'm falling for an angel
Yeah I'm falling for an angel
每天搭乘公車上下班，來回通勤時間約莫近二小時，
有時人少，可坐在位置上欣賞窗外的風景；
人多時，也只能慢慢地擠回家，
但這時，身邊乘客的對話總會不時地傳到耳邊。
前日往回家的公車上，轉程靠站時，乘客頓時多了起來。
一對上班族男女恰巧在我身邊，吸引了我的目光。
可能因為人多，男的不時地將手臂圍住女的，
並輕聲的問
「累不累？」
「待會想吃些什麼？」
只見女的不耐煩地回答
「我已經夠煩了，吃什麼都還不先決定，每次都要問我。」
男的一臉無辜的低下頭，而後說了令我印象深刻的話。
「讓妳決定是因為希望能夠陪妳吃妳喜歡的東西，然後看到妳滿足的笑容，把今天工作的不愉快暫時忘掉。我的能力不足，妳工作上所受的委屈我沒法幫妳，我所能做的也只有這樣。」
女的聽了後，滿懷愧疚的說聲對不起。
男的這才似乎重燃信心般說：
「沒關係，只要你開心就好。」
而後親吻了女的頭髮。
下車前再回頭看看這對情侶，
男的依舊保護著心愛的人。
這樣的情景，
讓我覺得自己今天同樣在工作上有些許不愉快，
如果沒有聽到這一段對話，回家後的我，
可能也是一副全世界都對不起我的臭臉面對心愛的人，
只在乎自己的委屈，
卻忽視對方的感受，
不自覺地傷害最親密的人。
所以在踏進家門時，我問自己，
難道我要像公車上那位女孩一樣忍心
將自己的不滿委屈帶給身旁的人嗎？
不，我想我現在應該做的是...
別再把工作上的情緒發洩在心愛的人身上，
破壞了最親密的關係，
並且主動給自己一個微笑。
相遇，不是用來生氣的！說得真好！
當自己快抓不住情緒時，想想這句話，
應該會讓煩忙的生活，加些微笑的因子吧！
同樣地，在日常生活中，我們牽掛得太多，
我們太在意得失，所以我們的情緒起伏，
我們不快樂。在生氣之際，我們如能多想想︰
「我不是為了生氣而工作的。」
「我不是為了生氣而教書的。」
「我不是為了生氣而交朋友的。」
「我不是為了生氣而作夫妻的。」
「我不是為了生氣而生兒育女的。」
那麼我們會為我們煩惱的心情闢出另一番安詳
看完之後
當你和朋友..家人爭執時…
要記得你們的相遇…
不是用來生氣的喔…
但...人非聖賢...
誰能不生氣呢…
看了這篇文章以後…
記得.....下次要生氣時…
就別生太久…
免得傷心、傷肝、傷腎又傷腸胃…
你的出现，带来的不只是惊喜，还有幸福。
但你的生活是否如彩虹般那么多姿多彩？
长的，是三千丝的烦恼
短的，离不开三千丝忧虑
伤了、痛了，依然得往前走
你们的存在，让人生更有意义
S found M via online networking. S, it's an unknown fellow that admire and found M's MSN from somewhere. While M is a attached or in a relationship.
S : "Are you single or attached?"
M : "I'm single!"
Do you see the big threat for both of them?
If you are single, you are right to tell everyone that you are single. But if it's otherwise, you should tell the fact.
By telling people that you are single when in reality you are attached, you are just being an evil that creating an endless opportunity to your admirer to go after you.
Vice versa, you are creating an opportunity for yourself to cheat and being disloyal in relationship.
The minute you tell others you are SINGLE, ask yourself indeed if you really love your current lover or instead you are craving for more?
More endless desires, more endless admirers, more endless satisfaction, more endless sex...
You don't call ONS as make love, we call it sex
You don't call love as relationship, we call it sex partner
If you are not ready to commit in this relationship, you may leave...
If you are not guilty, you may leave...
Tell the facts, be good to you and others!
